Joshua Radin?? Is That You??

Was the man I saw last night really Joshua Radin?? I was expecting a weak-voiced, whispering singer. But what I got was a man who filled the room with his voice without the aid of a mic, and has some hard rocking tunes under his belt as well. Webster Hall was lit on fire last night by the man I least expected to do it. The crowd was as loud as a stadium show for this man, and I completely understand why.

If you don’t know who Joshua Radin is, you should get yourself well acquainted with him. He’s going to be super famous, you mark my words. Such a talented songwriter and dynamic performer. He sings with such feeling and emotion. He admits, a lot of his songs are inspired by loves won and loves lost, so you can see and feel the emotion he puts into them while singing. Yes, he moved me to tears at one point during a song called “No Envy, No Fear”. He says he wrote the song after living in LA for 4 years, and how the singer/songwriters there at a local bar accepted him as one of their own.

He’s also got quite the mouth on him.. motor mouth that is. He had these long gaps of banter. Now, being a John Mayer fan, I’m already a huge fan of banter and Joshua’s banter did not disappoint. He was engaging, funny and adorable. I enjoyed every talking section just as much as every song. He made sure it didn’t just feel like he was singing to us. He wanted us to know the reasons behind every song and get a glimpse at who he really is as a person. I definitely appreciated that about him.

At one point he jumped down from the stage and proceeded to sing a Bob Dylan song, without the help of any mics or amplifiers of any sort. And I must say you could hear him completely.

Overall.. completely impressed with Joshua Radin. He blew me away. Not only because his songs were painfully gorgeous, but because I wasn’t expecting him to sing so powerfully while still maintaining that ethereal beauty of the songs. I definitely wouldn’t mind seeing him again very soon. I also said I would want him to sing at my wedding if I could afford it. He did a song called “Today” that was amazingly gorgeous and coincidentally it was also the same song he sang at Ellen Degeneres and Portia DiRossi’s wedding. For more on Joshua Radin, check out his website at http://www.joshuaradin.com

I also wanted to say a bit about the opening band, The Kin. Two brothers from Australia, I was pleasantly surprised and amazed with them as well. Such gorgeous voices, and easy on the eyes as well.

Literally, all their songs were gorgeous. I wanted to buy a cd, but I ran out of money, so I will have to order it online. But wow!! Such great voices on these guys. I wasn’t expecting them to be so good. Check them out when you can at http://www.myspace.com/thekin.

For all the photos from the show, as well as other shows, check out my photos at http://picasaweb.google.com/tynie626.

John Mayer: Guitar God

Yep, I said it. Guitar God. I’ve been to 3 John Mayer shows and I’ve never in my life heard this man play like he did last night. He made that guitar sing, cry, and scream. OMG.. On “Gravity”? Shut up! I hope to everything holy everyone has a chance to see him play. AMAZING!

Even though this show was touted as “FREE” it was no skimping on his part. He played for a full 2.5 hours! Starting off with “Heartbreak Warfare” he was just getting back into his groove.

He played a wide range of songs, many from “Continuum”, while trying out the newer ones from “Battle Studies”, like “Half of my Heart”, “Edge of Desire”, Friends, Lovers or Nothing”, and “Who Says”. But…. he even played “Comfortable” from “Room for Squares”! I haven’t heard him play this song live in forever!! He struggled with the chords and some lyrics because it’s been forever, but did a great job. Then he went right into his amazing cover of Tom Petty’s “Free Falling”. He asked us to sing the chorus, and it was HARD!! Really not as easy as it looks to stay on the right tone and pitch on that high note, especially yelling it at the top of your lungs. He seemed very amused with our horrible singing. LOL

He really got into the groove about the middle part of the show and dusted off the cobwebs on “Gravity”. If I could explain to you how brilliantly amazing he played this song, you would be in shock. It’s almost like you can visibly see when he goes into that zone and just lets the music flow out through his fingertips. At one point, he removed the guitar strap, held the guitar in his left hand, played it with just that one hand, and came over to us and used his free hand to slap us fives. People were tugging on his pants, touching his legs, touching the guitar… but he still stayed focused and played on. He took this girls camera and used it as a guitar slide at one point to finish out a whole section of the song, and IT SOUNDED GOOD! Not one bad note.

He had tons of crowd interaction and banter as well. During the show he was talking about how gossip mags always want to print stuff about his personal life and the paparazzi always take these random pics of him getting out of his car, or coming out of his apartment, but “until they make that picture of me coming out of my apartment sound like ‘Gravity’ they can go to hell!” And he’s right. When did it become all about his personal life? This man loves to play and plays well. That’s all he’s really focused on, and so should we.

So he went on to talk about how everyone makes a big deal about who he dates and how he’s always labeled a womanizer. He said “how do I know what I want if I don’t test the waters”?? At that time, the house lights went up and he walked slowly across the stage, pointing out attractive women that “he’d love to spend time with.” All of a sudden, a black bra was launched up onto the stage right near his feet.

Do you see him holding the bra? LOL! He then proceeded to say “Now that’s what I’m talking about!” and twirls it over his head. Whoever that girl is, was so ballsy to do that. Later on in the night, she exposed her whole breast for John to sign. He did.

After that, he played a few more songs, most of which I put my camera down for because I was awestruck at how good he was and really wanted to give him my full attention. That is when a lot of eye sex happened. If you’ve never been to a show of his then you don’t know what I mean, but he is famous for his eye sex. He locks eyes with people while he plays and sings sometimes, and last night I was lucky enough to be on the receiving end of some of it. When I say orgasmic, I mean it. His gaze is intense, almost so much I felt like i should look away. But I didn’t. I managed to stick it out without fainting. LOL

Afterward, he proceeded to take peoples cameras and snap photos of him with the crowd. He took my camera, but it happened so fast, I didn’t have time to change the camera setting to turn on flash.

Sorry for the blurriness. But yes, that’s me! Proof of how damn close I was. I’ve never seen him do a show without some sort of barrier. I swear if he would have turned his head, we would have been kissing. That’s how close he was, LOL!

After the show, he stayed for autographs. He signed nearly everyone’s stuff. He’s an all around amazing musician and nice guy. I’m not sure why he gets the “douche” label sometimes. I think maybe because he has that sarcastic, dry humor that most people don’t get right off the bat.

So yeah, an amazing experience. Thanks to Myspace and to John Mayer for making this happen. I’ll probably never get front row for a show ever again, so this was well worth the 10 hours of waiting in line

Full photoset at http://picasaweb.google.com/tynie626/JohnMayerMusicHallOfWilliamsburgBKNY111609

The Reason Why MUTEMATH Will Always Be My “Favorite Band Ever”

So after 2 long years of waiting, MUTEMATH decided to have another tour and it was definitely not going to be missed by me! I opted for the VIP Package, and ohhhhh boyyyyy was it money well spent. Big thanks to MUTEMATH and everyone over at Teleprompt for such an amazing VIP experience. Seriously, this was the best band/fan relations I have ever witnessed in my entire life.

That said… onto the show.

As Tall As Lions

So when I found out that MUTEMATH would be returning to NYC, i decided to check out the opening band, As Tall As Lions. Turns out they are NY natives, and their music was another welcome refreshment for my ears. I enjoyed this band way more than the opening band that MUTEMATH picked for their last show here, Eisley. As Tall As Lions seemed a better fit with the energy that MUTEMATH emits when onstage. I must say, I was thoroughly impressed with the band as a whole!

They did only 6 songs, which included my all time favorite, “Ghost of York”. Not too many people knew who they were, but by the end of the set, people were cheering and clapping along for them. I’m sure they made quite a few fans tonight. The lead singer has an incredible voice and range, I was impressed with them. Also, the two in the back took turns playing those keyboards, trumpet, and various other instruments. Highly entertaining. I’d pay to see them again, without a doubt.

Mutemath

Like I said.. 2 long years of waiting and they day had finally come when MUTEMATH was back in town. My adrenaline was coursing so high I had a slight headache from all the anticipation. I felt as if i would burst into tears or break into hysterical laughter at any moment. And this was all before they even came onstage! When I heard the first few notes of “The Nerve” I knew this would be a night I wouldn’t soon forget.

The crowd was quickly energized and transformed into a hurtling mass of bodies all bobbing up and down to the beat, myself included. This was what I’d missed. The reckless abandon of all care for your own person, and just letting the music guide your movement. MUTEMATH has always been that band for me, where I could just say “fuckitall” and rock out like nobody’s business. Their energy is infectious!

Their setlist was peppered with songs from their newest album, “Armistice” of course, while bringing back some crowd favorites like “You Are Mine”, “Noticed” and “Reset” from their self-titled disc. They even managed to squeeze in “Peculiar People” from their first EP! And yes, I knew the words to all of the songs they played. When I say i’m a huge MM fan, I mean it. I’ve listened to their albums repeatedly over the years and most recently “Armistice” for weeks, just trying to mentally prepare myself for everything I had witnessed tonight.

Can I take a moment and talk about how insane Darren King is? Seriously, is he from another planet? Injected with some experimental drugs? Because how in the bloody hell does he play like he does? I’ve not seen nor heard a drummer that’s impressed me that much in so long! Darren has been my favorite drummer ever since I found out about MUTEMATH, and when you see him in action you really appreciate how talented he really is.

Exhibit A: The Duct-Taped Headphones

I mean, seriously. He knows he is gonna be drumming harder than any man known to beat a drum, hence the duct tape. Notice the sweat? Yea, that was after like 2 songs. By the end of the show, it looks like he’d just threw himself into the nearest pool, got out and sat down to play. I’m not even kidding. He was so sopped with sweat, he was nice enough to put his blazer on before crowdsurfing so we didn’t get his sweat all over us. What a stand up guy.

Exhibit B- The Cymbal

Do you see this? There were like 4 spare drumsticks out in the audience at this time, and he let whoever got one play with him. I was awed. Not only because I wish it were me who got a drumstick, but because he made sure those people actually stayed on beat and kept time with him.

I can’t even show you the craziness of the bass drum being held by the crowd, with him standing on top, then he takes a swan dive BACKWARDS off of it, is caught by the crowd and crowdsurfs back to the stage. Sorry, my camera died from all the awesomeness that previously happened.

So can I talk about the super awesomeness of Paul Meany now? Can the man have any more energy? Let me tell you, I saw him before the show at the VIP Reception and he is so laid back and calm. Put him onstage and you get instant Red Bull™ action. I can’t even begin to explain how he does it.

Exhibit A- Let The Crowd Sing

Do you understand that one minute he was onstage, dancing and clapping and the next minute he was right next to me in the crowd? I swear it was like I blinked and he was right there! It’s almost like he teleported himself there. I don’t understand how he was able to propel himself + mic stand that far, that quick. LOL

I so wish I could have shown you the frontflips he was doing over his keyboard near the end. Yea, my camera had already died from the awesomeness like I said. *sigh*

Roy is a damned bass playing monster! He played the hell outta that thing!! LOVED IT!!! Greg was awesome on guitar as well. He even got on drums a bit! I didn’t know he had it in him!!

So yeah. This show basically owns my whole life,LOL. Absolutely, hands down best show I’ve seen EVER! EVER!..lol. I really don’t care what background you’re from, what music you like… you have got to go see this band next time they come to your town. Even if they don’t come to your town, make the drive to see them. There is a damn good reason why they were named “#1 Band You Need To See Live Before You Die” by Alternative Press. I certainly would have been ok with death after this show.

I swear afterward I just walked around completely amazed. I just kept shaking my head because I couldn’t even believe it! I still can’t believe it! I’m so physically exhausted right now from all the exertion tonight, yet I can’t seem to go to bed because I’m so wired from it! I guess you can classify this under the “Good Tiredness” category right alongside sex. LOL

I must say though, the song of the night for me was “Burden”. Every time he gets to that part where he keeps saying “i just can’t hold it together, i just can’t hold it together…” it does something to me. I remember Paul asking me at the listening party which one was my favorite and I instantly said “Burden”. I knew that song was something special, and boy was I right! Hearing it done live was even more breathtakingly mindblowing.

Sheesh, I could probably talk about this all day… err.. night? I suppose it’s technically morning now, since it’s 4:10am already.

I only hope they go on tour again sometime soon, because every other show will now pale in comparison to this one, and I still haven’t caught a Darren drumstick yet, lol. I did manage to snag Roy’s pick from a lovely woman who was kind enough to give it to me. I think she saw my face after I pleaded for something from the stage and had pity on me. LOL

Why do I want to keep writing! LOL I feel prematurely sad for anyone who talks to me in the next few days. The Gospel of MUTEMATH shall be preached.

BTW- the full set of pics will be up on my Picasa acct at: http://picasaweb.google.com/tynie626 once the desktop uploader gets its act together. Can you believe I took 481 photos tonight?

They Came, They Played, They Amazed.

That’s right. Bobby Long and Sam Bradley returned once again to The Big Apple. Once again, not surprisingly, their performances exceeded their last.

First up: Bobby Long

Bobby played 3 shows here in the city, the first being a free industry ASCAP showcase as part of CMJ Music Festival week. The set was short, only about 6 songs, but he played and sang well. He performed just enough of the song to whet everyone’s appetite for the other shows to come that week, which was indeed a smart move.

Because, the next show was at The Bitter End, which was the venue he ended the tour at last time he was in NYC. I debated whether or not if I should go, first of all because it was raining cats and dogs and secondly because I was just plain tired, but I couldn’t miss a show while I knew Bobby was in town.  I always feel as if i’d miss something epic.  Anyway, Bobby played even better than at the ASCAP showcase. He also debuted a new song called “The Stranger Song” which I was a little upset I missed the beginning of because I was in line for the bathroom. But the song is absolutely gorgeous. It might possibly be my new favorite, next to “Sad Woman Blues’ of course,lol.

The only thing that sucks about the Bitter End is that there is never any meet and greet because another band comes in to play right after him. I’ve met Bobby numerous times, so the concern is mostly for the people who have possibly traveled long distances to see him or if it’s their first time seeing him in general.

But now, onto the pièce de résistance! The show at good ole Arlene’s Grocery. Bobby’s favorite and mine. I knew this show was the must see out of all of them, and yes, I recorded the whole show, so sadly no photos from me. But he played beautifully, he sang beautifully, he was funny and endearing, he even took requests. And finally, my request for “Sad Woman Blues” was granted. The song that initially led me to Bobby, Marcus and Sam. The song that started it all. He sang it with emotion. I like to think he sang it to me. LOL

Remember my last post about Bobby, when I said it was obviously evident how much he’s grown. Well he’s grown even more. This man is destined for stardom. Mark my words!!

Now…. Sam Bradley!!

Sam, far surpassed any expectation that I had of him since the last time I saw him. That boy knows how to work a stage. Where Bobby lets his music speak for him when he performs, Sam throws everything he has into his performances. It’s evident that he knows exactly who he is as an artist and where he’s going.

It was also the first time of me seeing him with a full band and they added an extra layer of dimensions to his songs! Absolutely phenomenal. We sang, we danced, and we cheered til our throats were sore. I can’t wait for him to return to NYC. His show is a must see.

So that’s it folks! As usual for more pics, check out my photo blog at http://tyniepics.wordpress.com

Also, Bobby Long and Marcus Foster will be coming back to NYC in December! A lot of my friends are coming from out of state to see these 2 play back to back dates at the infamous Mercury Lounge. If you are NYC, this is a can not miss event. If you aren’t in NYC, I suggest you find a way to get here. It’s a weekend! No excuses!! LOL But seriously, check out their myspaces for more info on where you can catch Bobby, Marcus and Sam on tour. I highly recommend you see them all!

http://www.myspace.com/musicbobbylong

http://www.myspace.com/sambradley

http://www.myspace.com/marcusfoster

A Boring Rainy Tuesday Night… and my thoughts.

Reposted from Facebook: [ everything in quotes and brackets are what others said]

ahem ppl. always make sure to say what u mean and mean what u say. integrity is a highly valued trait. also, why are so many people scared of telling the truth?? it’s easy.. and it usually comes out eventually anyway.

besides, if u go thru life always telling the truth, then nobody can ever come at u later on some BS.

[ someone commented about losing faith in people]

it’s something that i have to learn to accept. just because my standard is this, doesn’t mean that i can hold people to the same standards. i can’t even begin to act surprised when they do disappoint me because i knew in the beginning that they would.

it’s a hard thing to accept. especially for someone like me who always tries to see the good in people no matter what. past instances i’ve usually learned my lesson too late and i end up with all the hurt.

and not trying to sound all holier than thou either. i mean, growing up i did my fair share of lying and deceit. but i learned quickly how to evaluate my decisions and actions based on how they will affect other people. before i make a decision i always imagine and ask myself how it would affect others.

it frustrates me that more people don’t take the time to do that, sadly.

i guess the selfishness of some people still astounds me no matter how many times i’ve seen it firsthand.

lol i just remembered the grey area of secrets and trust in relation to lies. i’ll leave that area alone. i just mean boldfaced LIES! lol

[this got me thinking of a quote i read... A person should not be too honest. Straight trees are cut first and honest people are screwed first]

well i suppose the “not too honest” part would be made up of secrets u keep for yourself and others then. and i mean small secrets! not like u have a wife in the next town or something like that

[HA! small is a relative term but we all would agree that aint small..
but overall, honesty requires foresight, an ability not many possess. the foresight not to get yourself into ish that will cause you to lie later...]

yes foresight. that was the term for what i was explaining earlier. thank u! lol

but now thinking about it.. me saying that i shouldn’t be surprised by disappointments, would mean that i would go into things with a negative outlook which isnt good either.

how would i balance that?? unless i just learn how to deal with disappointment gracefully instead of outright trying to avoid disappointment altogether……

ehh i dunno,lol. im just rambling on

ha!! thinking more on the topic of foresight now.. i’ve said so many times “why can’t men think about their gf/wives/family before they go out and cheat”.

then i thought about primal needs. like sex is just as much a primal need as are hunger and thirst. i mean, if u were starving on the street, u’d do whatever u could in order to get fed. so in some weird way i guess i can understand how men (ok and women, lol) cheat.

that primal drive sometimes clouds better judgment *nod nod*…

but i am in no way saying that it makes it right!!! SOME people are able to successfully control those instincts.

so does that make the one who can control himself “the stronger one??” i guess in a way it does. if a person can consciously control the basest of instincts then i guess it would make them stronger than someone who cannot.

btw, this is not what prompted my initial post.. lol no one has cheated on me in my current situation. i’m just saying..

The Sam Bradley TShirt Design Contest

Hey everyone! So Sam Bradley decided to hold a contest for the fans to design some of his new tour shirts. When I heard about it, I was immediately excited about it, but for some strange reason, I had a mental block and couldn’t think of anything. Then, the day of the contest end, I did finally end up coming up with some designs.

I hope I win! It would be really awesome to see my designs out there on the merch tables from state to state! LOL I think I’d be giddy with excitement if I saw someone  buy my shirt! LOL

Anyway, here are the designs. Don’t steal em. I can and will hunt your ass down.

Design #1 – “I Lost My Passport”
A definite play on the song “Passport”. I wanted to do something incorporating that bewildered image of Sam’s face i found online and the Passport seemed the best fit. I have it on a red shirt, but can be printed on any color.

Design#2 – Sam Bradley EP
Just the list of the songs on the EP.. hopefully people will be curious and want to know where it came from, and how they can snag a copy for themselves. The text is in pink because I had women in mind, but can be easily changed to be more guy friendly.

Design #3 – Sea Blue
Another play on one of the songs. I saw these clouds photos online and i thought it would look nice on a shirt, so I incorporated that with a line from the song

Design #4 – Sam Bradley Dog Tags
A reminder of the dog tags that were sold on tour with the special code to download his album. Simple, and clean design which is good for both men and women.

Design #5 – “I’m Here” with Burger
A fun reminder of the famous “Are You Here” video, which poked fun of Sam’s original video which was whimsically filmed in front of a burger backdrop. Bobby and Marcus recorded their own version of the burger video, in which they were searching for Sam. This shirt reminds you exactly where he is at all times. Address of Sam’s YouTube account is written across the back.

All Good Things Must Come to an End.

I’m referring to Bobby Long’s “Dangerous Summer Tour.” That’s right folks. The 1st American leg of the tour is over, and Bobby is well on his way back over the pond to play some European dates before his return in October.

I attended 3 out of the 4 back to back New York dates here – 2 at Arlene’s Grocery and 1 at the Bitter End, which was ironically the last show of the tour.

Now I must say this. I’ve been to 7 Bobby Long shows total, and I have never once felt bored or un-entertained by him. But one thing is clearly evident – this man has really come into his own during the past few months. Let’s just compare:

Bobby Long - April 09 (Lakeside Lounge)

Bobby Long - September 09 (The Bitter End)

I don’t know what you see, but in the bottom photo he definitely looks more lost in the music, not even thinking, just letting it flow out of him, and it’s very obvious when you see it live. He’s singing better, playing better, relating to the crowd more – just an overall improvement on something that was already terrific! Well done, Bobby.

There was one song in particular that he really shined on though, and the general consensus is that blues is his niche. The song is a medley – “Penance Fire Blues”, into “In My Time of Dyin’” and then into “Hoochie Coochie Man.” This trifecta of songs creates something so magical every single time he plays it, his talent and skill are just undeniable. I love the blues, and I love it especially when it’s done well, and Bobby certainly doesn’t disappoint. Here is the video to prove it:

If you don’t understand just how epic this version is since I last heard it, here is a reminder of the original version of “Penance Fire Blues” that I heard back in April.

Do u see the differences again?? You see how much more comfortable he is on stage now? Nice! Now, not saying it wasn’t brilliant before, but his growth is remarkable. I foresee lots of great things for Mr. Robert Thomas Jerome Long.

Be sure to check out his myspace here: http://www.myspace.com/musicbobbylong for all tourdates, updates and blogs from him.

Also, be sure to check out a fabulous street team that helps promote the boys, called “Land of Dreamers” here: http://www.onedreameratatime.com.

To check out a full, uninterrupted Bobby show, go here: http://vimeo.com/6540233. This video I shot all in one take on the second night of Bobby’s shows here. You won’t be disappointed.

For all photos, visit my photoblog here: http://tyniepics.wordpress.com

Marcus Foster lyrics… finally!!

So i had the bright idea to listen to all of Marcus’ songs and write out the lyrics because there is a need for them!! LOL

My first version of the lyrics were riddled with mistakes, so my friend Meghan helped me clear most of them up.

Buttttt, it would be awesome if Marcus could make sure we got em right.. So if you’re reading Marcus, please help!!

thanks for the editing help meghan!!

“circle in the square”

got a hungry noise inside my head
knows the flavor of the timeless night
ive dreamt the sky but when its gone to bed
never manage to taste the light
i can never manage to taste the light

i lay feeling on the grassy ground
spits and shakes and tries to hide
i can barely feel but i won’t stay still
you can hear her laughing on the other side
you can hear her laughing on the other side

a feast that’s fit for a thousand kings
is laid out for my waiting eyes
thirst could quench 100 wolves
make the circle in the square
make the circle in the square

so i follow the track to the one outside
but crept in my burnt, useless sky
through narrow words and hidden sound
trace my footprints on the ground
i trace my footprints on the ground

beats the feet of a million dreams
slaughtered savage as it seems
if i throw my bones into the sea
pace the shoreline waiting for me
pace the shoreline waiting for me

whooooooa ohhhhh x3

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“tumble down”

in this life there’s only one man who is born, who is torn into the night
he has lived and he has died and he’s the only one who’s tied to the night

he will walk
through pointless danger
he will go
through twisted sorrow
he will know
that if he really saw the wall it would all just tumble down

have you ever seen the haunted ancient morning sweep the stars out from the sky
have you ever seen the dust wiped from your heart so clear that you can see it shine, see it shine

as you walk
through your pointless danger
you will go through
twisted sorrow
but you will know
that if you really saw the wall it would all just tumble down

cuz it could hold no more truth..oh
it could hold no more dreams
it could hold no more people… people
they would know what it means
it could hold no more sky
it could hold no more sea
no more.. no more sea
it could hold no more time
cuz it would all, it would all
just tumble
downnnnnnnnnnnnnn
it would fall
it would fall…ooooohhhh yeaaaaahh yeahhhhhhh
ayyyeee down down down down down
tumble down..(adlibs to end)

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“shadows of the city”

oh the streets bleeding out for a real dream that’s not filled with unmarked bills
when the moon turns its back to let off steam you’re faced with a cold chill
there’s a bird at the window, smoke in it’s eye, singing off key
there’s a wounded girl with her heart shaped shoe in the shadows

in the shadows
in the shadows
of the city
in the shadows
of the city

well the trains are half empty with faces that try to break off their chains
bound by the sound of the screaming dawn that is all their name
there’s a madman throwing stones at the streetlight coming through a torn out shade
there’s a small river by the fallen tree in the shadows

in the shadows
in the shadows
of the city
in the shadows
of the city

you can feel the air breathing down your neck like a ghost standing by your side
flashing white teeth by the silent road he’s looking for a place to hide
rain cold woman with a knife in her hand and a shovel on the grassy ground
catch a left eye you can hear the sound of the shadows

in the shadows
in the shadows
of the city
in the shadows
of the city

yeahhhhhhhh

in the shadows

(adlibs to end)

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“in your head”

if you try to measure time
it’s gone before the twinkle of an eye
burns out like a candle
blacks out like the sky

can you remember all the skins that you’ve shed
all the dreams stained on your bed
words that your feel
feelings that you’ve said

think of all the things we break
the gifts that you might take
you embrace the silence of the night until you try
to fill it up with silence

in your head
in your head
in your head
in your head
in your head
in your head

do you invent your history
and brave enough to steal the memory
can you get a failure to think you are free

can you remember all the times you tried to teach
the arms you’ve tried to reach
i still don’t know the difference between what we accept or believe

think of all the times you’ve lied
places that you’ve tried
do you think that in your heart that it’s all true
just not fair… oh

in your mind
in your mind
in your mind
in your mind
in your mind
in your mind

fallen like a soldier
risen as the same
do you think that you are graceful

you really jumped the gun
you think that you’re the one
are your hopeful you can leave a trace of yourself

when you’re dead
when you’re dead
when you’re dead
when you’re dead
when you’re dead
in your head

i say..
i say..

in your head
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“i don’t mind”

if i had the time to solve the mystery of your crime you know i would
if i had to shape the form of your mechanical design you know i could
well i’ve been up and down the lanes to lose
the memory of your name, the sword is taken from the stone, put it in the lake
but i mended up my heart and i’ve got nothing more but bones to break

but i said i do believe
on the endless roads you weave
you may climb
you may fall
you can spend your lifetime on the wall
i don’t mind

if i had the hand to take the blood out of the sound to make it dry
and if i knew the burn for the secrets of the earth i won’t ask why
well i’ve been in and out of windows just trying to find the doorway i have broken off the marble that is weighted upon my shoe
but i’ve mended up my heart and i’ve nothing more but time to lose

but i said i do believe
on the endless roads you weave
you may climb
you may fall
you can spend your lifetime on the wall
but i don’t mind

if i could look within the endless tears upon your skin would i go blind
if i could carve your face upon and unfamiliar place would i be kind
well i’ve seen visions of a ghost that stands upon the ragged sleeve of all my faded dreams that i’ve broken at the seams
but i’ve mended up my heart and i’m nothing more but salt on the breeze

but i said i do believe
on the endless roads you weave
you may climb
you may fall
you can spend your lifetime on the wall
but i don’t mind

i don’t mind
i don’t mind
i don’t mind
i don’t mind
i don’t mind
i don’t mind
——————

“the room”

pace yourself and
take it slow
nothing here can change us now
the rain may fall and shadows grow but
time has stole the world somehow

the moon is on the rise
im frozen in your eyes

the room is wrapped in dust and silence
keeping out the night
keeping out the night
keeping out the night

the gate may rust and the tide may turn
friends may go their separate ways
fathers trust their child to learn
how to spend their dying day
dying day
dying day
dying day

taken by your hand
like stones set in the sand

the room is charged with ghosts of voices meeting our demands
meeting our demands
meeting our demands

ohhhhhhh yeaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i said… i….
the sky may crack
world may tumble
streets may see your endless gaze
time keeps traveling
cities crumble
i was born to call your name
call your name
i said call your name
call your name
i said call your name
gnawing of the dark
gnawing of the dark
echoes of the dream
echoes of the dream

the room is folding in your arms a sight i’ve never seen
sight ive never seen
never never seen

(adlib to end)
———————–

“chase the blues”

the room is filled with darkness and the streets are filled with pale, white light
the silent sky is folding up the evening with the same old sigh
the dream that i’ve been chasing i’ve been waiting for so long to see
all i have are pieces and they just seem to trample on me

cuz i don’t wanna see the moon go down
and i don’t wanna feel the cold ground
and i don’t wanna think about tomorrow

for today
i wanna chase the blues away
for today
i wanna chase the blues
blues away

well it’s late in the morning and the feeling got me haunted right now
the shadows in the doorway well they always make the same old sound(same old sound)
if i’m not hearing voices then i know i’m bout to go insane
by the time the sun comes up i know the devil has my name(has my name)

cuz i don’t wanna see the moon go down
and i don’t wanna feel the cold ground
and i don’t wanna think about tomorrow

for today
i wanna chase the blues away
for today
i wanna chase the blues away

cuz i… i’ve been waiting for so long
yes and i…feel a change is gonna come
yes i feel it in my bones
i said lawd
i said lawd
i feel it in my bones
in my bones
in my bones
in my bones
in my bones

don’t wanna see
don’t wanna see
don’t wanna see

moon go down
moon go down
going down

(adlib to end)

…and we march on…

That’s what a very wise man said once, LOL. So where did I leave off last??? Ohhhhh right, yes.. my life taking a downward spiral. Yea, sorry I was having an emo day. I’m feeling much better now, thank you very much!

Still haven’t found work, but I’m keeping my eyes and ears open. Really trying to get a firm grasp on what I want to do with my life! Seriously, I’m one of those do-it-all types. I have so many interests that I fear if i settle on just one I will be bored to tears… This makes for quite a quandary. Ehhh.. guess I’ll mull over it later, with a beer of course. Cuz beer makes it better.

Hmm what else… oh right! The guy. Or should I type “THE GUY” cuz he’s that big of a deal,LOL. Eh, nothing happening. I think I’ve been mentally preparing myself to let it go because I can’t even fathom it. Really, it’s completely farfetched to imagine it… soooooo… marching along….

What else… yes! The Sam Bradley and Marcus Foster shows!

Sam Bradley played 2 shows here at Joe’s Pub, and the venue was just as  I remember. Insanely small, and they had the nerve to have dinner service! Standing room was only for about 25 people, no lie! We were all crammed next to the bar, while the wait staff shuffled by us with food. If i was smart I would have stolen some fries off some of those plates, right??

Anyway, yes Sam sang quite beautifully and was 10 times funnier than I imagined. Tall too! Dare I say more attractive in person as well?? Yep, he was thoroughly entertaining. Of course, my faves of the night were “Sea Blue”, “Too Far Gone” and a new song called “Wide Open”, which I did capture on film, but he threatened to break our kneecaps if we posted it on YouTube, so sorry folks, u won’t get it from me! (He didn’t really threaten us, but could you imagine? LOL) Yes, night 1 brought us a very chatty, comical and vocal Sam. Really.. he talked for at least 5 minutes in between each song. Thank goodness he’s not dry and boring.. (Bueller, Bueller??)

Anyway, night 2 brought us a far more subdued Sam. He was all about his music tonight, and I think it had something to do with his lack of rest, as I had asked him after the show and he did admit to being tired.

Now, onto Marcus. Let me mentally prepare myself to tell you about the greatness of this man. *clears throat*

He exceeded every expectation I had of him. It was to the point where I watched him in awe, mouth agape, camera hanging limply at my side. Just dumbfounded at how deliciously good he was. I can’t even put into words the awesomeness that man left on that stage this past weekend. Yes, it was that amazing!! GAH! Dare I say he was my favorite of the 3. (Sorry Bobby, I’ll always <3 you! LOL) How can I explain… It’s like the music just explodes out of him. One minute he’s so shy you just want to hug him so tight and never let go, and the next minute he’s working the stage like a music legend. I’ve never seen anything like it!!

Yea, so if you ever have the chance to catch Marcus live, DO IT!! He is AMAZING!!!

Hmm, what else… the documentaries?? Still dead in the water.

I suppose that’s really all that’s been going on! Next things on the agenda are- 3 Bobby Long shows, Kings of Leon,  in September. It’s gonna be an AMAZING month!! Cannot wait!

And I’m in the process of updating my YouTube channel with all the video footage that I take. Go subscribe!!

Down, down, down…

Yep, I’m having a bit of a down spell.. down as in feeling a bit blah about things. I dunno, I guess I’ve come to a few realizations, that are:

• I’m definitely not gonna get the guy I want to be with.
• I feel I will have to take a bullshit job because the job market really is that bad.
• None of my documentary subjects are willing to be filmed. So that is dead in the water.

I mean, i’m not whining, I’m just stating facts! This is a time of realization as well as a down on the rollercoaster of life.

I wonder how long it’s gonna be til there’s an up. I really feel like Denzel Washington in Malcolm X when he’s walking down the street in a daze, cuz he knows that bad times are ahead. (I tried to find that clip, but I couldn’t.)

To be honest, I think the thing that is bumming me out the most is the guy that I won’t get to be with. I don’t believe he sees me in the way I wish to be seen, and that is as more than a friend or even acquaintance. A person’s self-esteem can only endure so much rejection before it begins to crumble. And I am beginning to see cracks in mine.  People tell me I’m pretty, intelligent, dynamic, engaging and overall a great person. But it really is hard to keep believing that when every object that has garnered my affections doesn’t reciprocate the feeling in return.

Now I may be shooting myself in my own foot because I haven’t exactly told him how I feel in person yet. But it’s not like he’s shooting sparks at me to let me know he’s interested. I once heard someone say “If a guy likes you, you’ll know.” Is that really true? Are guys usually that cut and dry?? I mean, I’ve been long out of the dating world- 4 yr relationship to 2 year relationship to another 2 year relationship to not dating at all for almost 2 years, and here I am in present day. I feel like I have to learn all the rules again! Are there even rules?? I’m still very old fashioned. And very picky, even in who I choose to give my # to. Only if I have a bonafide interest in someone do they even get my #.

It’s like shoe shopping. Most people go to the shoe shop and try on a ton of shoes for fit, comfort, stability. Not me. I research extensively before I even go to the shoe shop. I want to know exactly what style, what fit I can expect, and how much it will cost even before I put it on my foot. I’m a thinker.. a planner. I like to know everything there is to know about something before I put my time and effort into it. That is why I hate dating so much. I don’t want to get all dressed up and go out with someone if they don’t meet any of my expectations.

In a sense, I guess the people that I show interest in should feel somewhat lucky they’ve passed the screening phase, LOL *rolls eyes*

I dunno… I feel doomed. I feel like why should I get my hopes up when I know it’s going to end badly, like it always does.

Jesus, I’m turning into a Debbie Downer.

Someone shoot me and put me out of my misery.

What am I doing wrong? Am I really this bad at life??