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Bon Iver.

No witty titles for this blog folks, just straight up Bon Iver.

I made the sojourn to Milwaukee, Wisconsin for the Bon Iver show at the Pabst Riverside Theater, 7/23. There was a show that happened the previous night, but the 23rd was the original date that went onsale first for this tour. My friend Meghan and I both love Bon Iver, so we decided that our 1st Bon Iver experience would be together, in Wisconsin. She cracked under the pressure and went to the show on the 22nd, but I still love her,lol.

I made it into Wisconsin on little sleep and a whole lot of excitement!

Meghan quickly scooped me up from the airport, along with another friend of mine, Kat!! HEY KAT!

She had come down for the day for a “Waukee Hang” (LOL). A huge brunch later, we went back to a friend’s house – Jen! The majority of the time between brunch and going to the venue was spent playing with Jen’s dog, Gracie, and trying to bribe Meghan to tell me what happened at last night’s show. Yes folks, I was like a crackhead for information. I NEEDED TO KNOW!!!

Scanning the setlist, I was so happy to see “Beach Baby.” I had requested that song a few weeks ago, glad he included it! Also… BJORK! What!! Bon Iver covering a BJORK song?? Is this real life? The idea of it was so intriguing I snuck onto Soundcloud and found it. Brilliant. I suggest you all take a listen when you can 🙂

A nap later…lol… We decided to head on over to the venue. I was so excited I was about to burst! I think Meghan found my excitement hilarious! LOL. We got to our seats, which were about 10 rows from the back, but still had a great view of the stage. Of course I wished we were front row, but I was just so damned happy to be there, I didn’t even care anymore.

The opening band were The Rosebuds who Justin used to play in back when he lived in North Carolina. I’ve just recently started listening to them, and I do enjoy their songs, but something was off with their sound. At times Ivan’s vocals were way overpowering and loud, other times they were great, and then Kelly’s vocals couldn’t even be heard at all. Not sure what happened there, but it sort of marred their performance slightly…. slightly. I think they would have killed a smaller venue though, no question.

Intermission time was upon us then. Meghan stepped out to stretch her legs and wound up seeing some of the Volcano Choir boys out in the lobby! If you don’t know, Volcano Choir is another band that Justin plays in from time to time.

After a bit Meghan comes back, we talk a little to pass the time… and then…. the lights go down.

My heart immediately starts pounding. I think I grabbed Meg’s arm at one point too.

And then, the cheers start. The deafening applause and yelps completely fill the venue. And out they walked as a group. There were so many of them, they filled the entire stage easily. The backdrop was just a few simple linear lights spread across the stage horizontally. Not fussy at all which I completely expect from Bon Iver. What I didn’t expect was what Justin was wearing. A VEST… and omg… is that… what I think it is?? Justin, are you wearing a BOLO TIE?!?!?! Seriously? LOL. Then again, with him, I am not surprised, just amused. This is the same grown man who performed in a Bart Simpson shirt, and wears a tan fanny pack. And we all love him even more for it. Because it shows how much he’s not into pretenses and appearances. It’s so refreshing… Anyway, I digress….

Finally the tell tale guitar riff of “Perth” begins. The adrenaline in my body at this point has caused me to breathe so heavily I’m feeling a bit faint. Luckily, I managed to calm it down by the time he started singing. And ohhhhh boy, can Justin sing. If you’ve ever doubted the clarity and power of Justin’s falsetto, don’t ever do it again. EVER AGAIN. As a band, on this song, it was extremely overwhelming. They are so cohesive, and so… just… dead on balls accurate on execution that they make it look so easy. Sean and Matt’s dueling drumsets were a thing of encompassing beauty. It was marvelous. At this point I’m so glad they decided to bring all these musicians out on tour because anything less wouldn’t do it justice. Like I predicted, it sounded huge and fucking amazing live and I wanted to live in that moment forever. Those simple little lights provided such an accompaniment to the lyrics and cadence of the song, it was the most spectacular opening song I’ve seen yet, from any band.

And then a few songs later… “Holocene”. The one song I knew I would cry on, and completely on cue, it happened. I looked to Meg and said “Ohhhh nooooo” and felt my eyes well up. I spent the first minute of the song with my head ducked down bawling like a baby. Then I decided to get some audio at least so I can cry about it in the comfort of my own home later today, LOL. But seriously, that song live is just everything I’ve ever felt, every emotion I’ve ever had, every pain I’ve ever experienced. It was overwhelming and I needed to cry on that song to let it out. If you care to hear a fraction of what I heard that night:


After that crying bit, I wound up crying on almost every song all through the middle of the show. It was just 1 song after another, all relevant to me, all have spoken to me or helped me through a situation at one time or another in my life. I remembered these moments and I remember how the songs made me feel at that time, and it was just so cleansing for me to be able to let them go. It’s almost as if hearing the same songs that I heard back then, in a sense, gave me permission to leave it behind. Like I shouldn’t have to carry any guilt or sadness around with me anymore. Particularly gorgeous was one from the new album called “Wash.” The song on the album was already gorgeous, but the live arrangement was stunning. It was one of those moments where you are just so grateful for your life and to be in the room hearing it. I could not stop crying on this song. Meg wound up crying on this one too. The lady next to me probably thought I was completely mental, but I did not care. Justin voice… I can’t even explain… I looked at Meg after one part that Justin sang, just a small riff, but it was so damn gorgeous it hurt me. She felt it too because she had the same expression on her face, and the crowd must have as well because they immediately cheered and clapped.

For a short break in the waterworks department, the boys pulled out another new one called “Hinnom, TX”. I had heard rumblings that while Justin did the heavy lifting on the low parts of the song, the parts that Justin also sing in his falsetto on the album version would be handled by Mike Noyce. Now, I’ve seen Mikey sing only a handful of times, usually in 3 part harmony with Justin and Sean, or a few times taking the lead on some cover songs – “Tampa to Tulsa” and “Simple Man”. But when he bust out the chorus in perfect tune I was so happy. I could have kissed him for doing it so brilliantly. One thing is for sure – All 3 of those guys, Justin, Mikey and Sean can sing their asses off. Without any question. The crowd loved it too because the round of applause he received was certainly well deserved.

And then, tumbling back into the crying songs… the 1st one that ever made me cry upon first listen was “RE: Stacks”. UGH. Just him, alone in the spotlight, on electric guitar. It was so silent you could probably hear the collective heartbeats of everyone in the room, minus the few “woos” and “i love you justin!!”. It doesn’t translate well to this recording, but you can take a listen and see for yourself:


They then launched into the aforementioned cover of the Bjork song, “Who Is It”. Seeing Justin doing his signature 2-step with castanets in his hands will forever be burned into my memory. But the one who stole the show here was Reggie Pace, who beatboxed the entire song, perfectly. He also plays trombone, and the little bells and chimes you hear through the songs. I know that Meg recorded that one, so I suggest you scour YouTube for it. It was so unexpected, but so well done, it felt so so right.

The main set closer was a thing of beauty and something that I couldn’t wait to experience live, “Wolves”. By now, I’m sure you all have seen videos of this song being sang live and how the crowd reacts to it, but nothing, NOTHING, prepared me for it. It was so freeing to be able to hear and be a part of that song. This one I did manage to take some video of. Stealth video because we weren’t supposed to be recording it at all, but I had to capture this moment, if anything, for memories sake:


The encore brought out an old crowd favorite “Skinny Love.” By this time everyone was on their feet from the energy of “Wolves” and refused to sit back down. So at the top of my lungs I sang about loveable lies and forgoing the parable. I could only imagine how everyone on that stage felt with a crowd of that size singing a song that was written by a man who completely down on himself at the time. This is by far Bon Iver‘s biggest hit to date, and one that most anyone could identify with. At that moment in that room we were all equals, and a room of that size managed to feel like we got to share that tiny cabin with Justin for a few minutes.

True to form, he closed the night with “Beth/Rest”, a complete throwback to the 80’s musically, but lyrically it was the perfect choice to end the show. The arrangement of the song also changed a little bit too. For me, it came across a lot less 80’s and more “this is me, take it or leave it.” Justin declared himself, declared what Bon Iver is (or isn’t depending on how you look at it) and declared that there is so much more to come from him. His genius title is completely well deserved and the closing lines “this is axiom” is him outright telling us that he knows who he is and what he’s doing. “For Emma..” might have been his happy accident, but “Bon Iver, Bon Iver” is his huge footprint in the cement.

It’s obvious that I’m a fan, but if it’s possible at all to gain even more respect for a musician than you’ve already had tons for, this would be the man, and this would be the band. Bon Iver are a force to be reckoned with, as cheesy as it may sound. To translate such a lush and intricately orchestrated album into a more beautifully lush and intricately orchestrated live show is not an easy task, yet Bon Iver pulls this off flawlessly. This is by far the best show I’ve ever seen, and definitely a show I recommend everyone see.

For more on Bon Iver, visit the website at


Day 8 in Brighton, then HOME.

Hey guys,

So this will be a recap of what happened on Day 8 in Brighton, UK and then an overall wrap-up.

Day 8 found Meghan and I waking up at our usual vacation time, 12ish. It was a Friday, and you know what day that was… Bon Iver tickets onsale at 11am EST for United Palace Theater. Unfortunately, 11am EST was also 4pm UK time, so Meghan was nice enough to indulge my fannery (not a word, but i’m keeping it) and lounge around til 4. We both managed to get dressed so we could leave directly after I got the tix, which by the way, general admission sold out in minutes, but not before I snagged a decent floor seat. YES! So that brings my total to 3 Bon Iver shows this summer – 1 in Wisconsin, which is the holy grail for the following reasons: he’s from Wisconsin so you know he’s gonna perform like nobodies business, CHEESE, and I will also be meeting up with Meghan once again!! The others are both here in New York.

Wait a minute, this is not a Bon Iver blog dammit. Sorry… carrying on.

After we left, we meandered, no, we moseyed to the tube station. Far away in Brighton lay the proverbial cherry on top of our vacation, a Sofar Sounds gig. Sofar Sounds, or Songs From A Room is a series of global pop up gigs happening in peoples living rooms. (more on this later).

We had to switch to a railway to take us down to Brighton from London. About an hour later, we arrived.

1st thing: IT WAS COLD!

Geographically we saw it was near the coast. I wore as many layers as I could without looking like the Michelin Man, but Meghan was winging it in her cardigan…. tsk! We were both famished by the time we got there, so we stopped at this little stand that sells these things called Pasty’s. To me, they look like huge empanadas or beef patties, but these had a multitude of different fillings. I chose the “Meat Exravaganza” (which is totally not something I would normally do because the lady behind the counter had no idea what was in it) and Meghan got the Bacon and Cheese. NOM.

Despite the ominousness name, mine was delicious. Definitely chock full of sausage and molten hot cheese and tomato sauce. I had to do the fast huff puff so I didn’t burn the beejeezus out of my mouth.


A short cab ride over to the “secret location”. We were really early,so we found a pub down the block from our final destination. At this point we were desperate to rid ourselves of this blasted UK coin money so we got some drinks. I still couldn’t manage to count mine fast enough without the bartender looking at me like I was mental, so out came the paper poundage. That was such a FAIL, but I had it with those stupid coins.

Finally, we decided it was late enough to head over and not look lamely early so off we went. As we entered, we heard someone behind a door singing. Immediately my eyes went wide. I said “That sounds like Jack Savoretti”. I didn’t know if that was the room we were supposed to be in or not, so I didn’t knock. We walked a little more in and then we yelled out some “HELLO’s”.  A voice from downstairs welcomed us, so we descended. Immediately I see a blond haired guy with such a friendly face. He said we weren’t too early (thank goodness). Moving further into the room I come across Passion Ate Dave, or Dave Alexander, and Rocky Start – 2 of the founders of Sofar Sounds. I just recently saw Rocky at the last NY gig, so  I hugged him enthusiastically. I hadn’t seen Dave since the 1st NY gig, so I waved a hello to him, and decided it was best to get out of their way as they were still setting up.

Meghan held down a little couch in the corner, so I stood by and watched the space fill up. There was also a little patio area that people would mingle in as well. While we were down there, a band called Trophy Wife was rehearsing. From what they were playing, I knew they would be fantastic.

Talking more amongst ourselves, all of a sudden I look up and there’s Matt Hope! Matt does most of the tweeting and social networking for Sofar Sounds. I swear the look of pure joy on his face made me so happy. We hugged and he exclaimed how happy he was to finally meet us.

Nearing the start of the gig, I moved closer to the “stage area” so I could get some photos, leaving Meg near the couch. I didn’t anticipate what angle the performers would face, so this was not a good idea,lol. Aside from that, Trophy Wife went on 1st and they were just as good as I knew they would be:

Sofarsounds - Brighton

Sofarsounds - Brighton

So after that, the next performer was up… none other than Jack Savoretti. (I’ve got some stellar voice recognition, don’t I?). He tore the place down, as I expected. This was Meg’s 1st experience with him, and she was impressed as well.

Sofarsounds - Brighton

Sofarsounds - Brighton

And then after that was a lovely group from Paris called We Were Evergreen. So whimsical! I loved the odd little piano they used too 🙂

Sofarsounds - Brighton

And finally, it was Passion Ate Dave’s turn to perform:

Sofarsounds - Brighton

Sofarsounds - Brighton

There were 2 more performers, but the last train back to London departed at 11pm so sadly we had to leave early. Sofar was the perfect end to a perfect vacation as we packed up for our early morning flights. Meghan and I were departing from different terminals so a short goodbye hug in the tube ended our pairing. All I can say is that thank goodness we decided to go together!!

Which brings me to the wrap-up. I am not sure why traveling abroad was something that I always felt was so unobtainable. Maybe monetarily, yes.. (thank goodness for fair tax returns). I guess for me this trip represented a turning point. For me to just decide to go to London and actually follow through – buying the passport, booking the tickets, etc, is a STEP for me. I am the biggest procrastinator about certain things, and doing things for myself is something that I struggle with, not sure why.

Aside from that, during my time in London I kept feeling like “is this really my life”? Because I just couldn’t believe where I was. I am the 1st of my entire family to travel abroad.This trip represents a step in the direction that I intend on going. No, not moving to London. But wanting something, and following through on it to make it happen. I don’t want to go places or do things and feel like it shouldn’t be happening because it isn’t how my life usually pans out. I kind of felt a little out of place, like sure this is nice, but this isn’t MINE… if that makes sense. I know the lay of the land and the lay of my life in NY, but London was a complete clean slate. I felt confident and self assured, but only because I was thinking…. this isn’t really my life.

The next time I go back to London, I want it to feel like I’m supposed to be there, if you know what I mean. 2011 has been huge by way of changes, and I believe that I’m finally starting to get it all figured out. FINALLY.

So on that note, thanks to everyone who took the London ride with me… let’s do it again sometime 🙂

I don’t know how often I will update this because my day to day is not nearly as eventful as this vacation was, but we’ll see.

Til next time,


PS – For more info on Sofar Sounds and how you can be a part of it, visit Also, if you would like to support the movement, visit


Day 4: Boot Stomping in London

So this morning we decided to head over to Knightsbridge to check out Harrods. It really is like a huge huge Macy’s. Neither of us purchased anything and we had hours to kill before the Mumford & Sons gig, so we went across the street to this restaurant where we sat outside and had tea, scones, clotted cream and jelly. Absolutely delicious. Must find a way to get this again when I’m back home.

And here’s Meg, drinking her coke and eating scones, while I had the tea 🙂

Anyway, after some hours of sitting and talking we got on the tube to Wimbeldon, to the New Wimbeldon Theatre to see Mumford & Sons. Matthew & the Atlas opened for them. I would have loved to see more banter from Matthew & the Atlas, but I did enjoy his voice, very unique. I will be sure to listen to more of their stuff. The venue was gorgeous too…

Meg and I tried to stand on the side near the railing but the usher sent us back to our seats immediately when the show began.
Anyway…. After some preliminary announcements and hoopla, it was time…. 1st person to come out:



And finally…

The crowd was energetic and eager to participate. Everyone stood up. Everyone clapped. Everyone danced. Everyone cheered. Old and young alike.., it was pretty spectacular. But when a moment of silence was asked for, this happened, and it was lovely:

Meg and I looked at each other like “OMG.” It was so silent you could hear a pin drop, I was very impressed that the silence lasted the entire song.

They also played another one of my favorites:

I love a multi talented man! Seeing Marcus on drums is invigorating, I was again… Impressed.

Overall I thought it was one of the best gigs I’ve been to in recent history. Winnie humped his banjo as usual, Ben smiled the entire time and whipped his hair back and forth, Ted was Ted, and Marcus left his heart and soul out onstage. It was inspiring and possibly one of the best nights of my life. Can’t wait to see them again.

Tomorrow would have been Paris, but since someone at the Eurostar website is smoking crack and trying to charge £400 roundtrip, Paris will have to wait. At least until I make my millions or the sugar daddy comes along, whichever is 1st.

So, more days in London, which I’m not sad about. Maybe some art… Maybe some sightseeing, maybe some more beer? Ok definitely more beer. Lol.

Til then,


29 on 29.

Heyyyy!! Miss me much? Yes, I know… I know.. I’ve kind of abandoned my blog after 2009 came and went. Truth be told, I had to buckle down and find a job. No more lollygagging. It was really sad how nonchalant I was about the whole unemployed thing anyway. I waited til the last month of benefits to seriously begin looking.

But…. I got lucky and I did find a job!! I work as a Campaign Manager for a global internet search marketing company. I know you’re thinking.. blah.. blah what? Huh? Well to explain in a nutshell, say Sony wants to advertise their new BFT line of televisions – BFT stands for “Big Fucking TV’s” (duh). Anyway, they need to run an ad campaign right? So they come to us. We have ad space on a shitton of websites. So Sony comes in and drops $500,000 for space on our network of sites for a month. Someone needs to manage their campaign to make sure they get what they pay for – that the ad runs for a specific allotment of times per day, and of course to make sure they stay on budget. That’s where I come in. I manage the campaigns. See, not too hard to understand, right?? 🙂

Anyway, yeah. So i’ve found work! On the live show front, so far I’ve been to see John Mayer at Madison Square Garden, and Bobby Long at Mercury Lounge again. John, incredible as always. My seats weren’t on the floor so I didn’t bring my camera, but I still had an amazing time! Much thanks to my friend Steve for inviting me along. 🙂 Bobby Effing Long came back too, and rocked it as usual. But my enthusiasm wasn’t bubbling over just for the simple fact that I cannot stand Mercury Lounge. It’s way too dark in there. Here’s a pic:

That’s with no retouching. That’s how dark it is in there, and the lighting really is that weird. There are like no spotlights. It’s awful! Plus, it gets too packed and way too hot in there. It’s almost unbearable! I’m really hoping that he goes back to Arlene’s whenever he comes back to NY!

Aside from that, business as usual. Notice how I skipped over the whole love life topic, because to be honest, there still isn’t any to speak of. Sure, a crush here or there, but nothing substantial. I thought maybe there would be a flicker of something with someone, but like I said before “if a guy is interested in you, you’ll know.” So far, no moves have been made on his side so I’m gonna let that one go. I shouldn’t have to work so hard for that.

Blah, anyway this blog isn’t supposed to be about that, but I felt I should at least explain where the hell I’ve been. The real reason for the blog is my birthday! Yes, today on March 29, I and 29 years old. It feels very strange being almost 30! I seriously feel like I’ve just left high school. I don’t know if that means I’m stuck in a rut or what, but all this has forced me to think about past birthdays. I was trying to remember one birthday when I felt like it was all about me, like I was being intensely celebrated, and I remember it was my 21st birthday. My best friend Keisha threw me a party at the bar her mom owned. I was dating James at the time and I walked in, the place was all dark and I had no idea what was going on. All of a sudden the lights popped on and everyone yelled “SURPRISE” then out walks my boyfriend, looking so intensely happy and proud that he was able to see the look of shock and happiness on my face. It’s something that I will never forget! Then I remember seeing my friends come out of the back area, then my mom comes bouncin out all happy, my brothers walk out, beaming. It was such a great moment in time, I wish I could relive that!! But alas, I don’t think I’ve ever been as happy on my birthday as I was that night.

Now I’m not saying that I haven’t had good birthdays since, I’m just saying that I’ve never felt as happy on my birthday as I did in that moment. And in some strange way, I think that every birthday since I’ve been trying to recapture that feeling of specialness from that night.

Like my last boyfriend’s birthday is the day before mine and I remember visiting his hometown and my birthday always got overshadowed by his, every single time. Of course it made me happy to see him happy, and I loved spending that time with him, but I felt like, once, just once I wanted that spotlight. I wanted to feel all that love and energy directed towards me. Sure maybe that might sound selfish, but it’s honest.

Plus the birthdays always make me think of my dad. I’ve always been daddy’s little girl, and losing my dad before my 16th birthday was something that always stayed with me. I always wonder if he’s proud of me, of who I’ve become as a woman and the choices I’ve made. I know, I know, you all will say ” Of course he is!! You’re fantastic!” But I want to know for certain, and sadly there’s no way to ever know that, and it bothers me.

But I won’t drag you all down that path tonight. There is a lot more of that story for future blogs, I assure you. 🙂

As this birthday comes to a close, I can say without any doubt that I have amazing friends, and a great family, and that’s really all I can ask for at this point. I recall saying to my mom earlier this week “Birthdays are for kids to party their faces off and for adults to have an excuse to drink with wild abandon and not be responsible for their actions in the slightest.” Then i thought about that, and I changed my outlook. As I’ve gotten older, my birthday for me has not been about partying, but more about spending time with people I care about who truly care about me. Today I’ve gotten messages from people that I had no idea who cared that much, people who I second guessed if they would even remember. But I was pleasantly surprised, and so unbelievably greatful. I wonder if they have any idea how much better they made me feel when I read the messages.

I was talking to a friend on Twitter earlier about what I wanted and I named 3 things… For long lost friends to come back, that I do something that makes me say “best birthday ever” and that a fine man will come into my life,lol. Those long lost friends DEFINITELY came back with a vengeance, and for that I thank them. 🙂 Best birthday ever? Depends on who you ask… Knowing that people really care enough to take 2 seconds out of their day to wish you well means a lot. As for the fine man thing… my friend is working her mojo on that. I think it might take a lil bit longer 😉

So I guess I’ll end this long blog before my birthday ends in 6 minutes with:

Thank you, each one of you for everything. x


John Mayer’s Digital Cleanse: The Aftermath

So, today is the 1st day I’ve been off John Mayer’s digital cleanse, since 9am EST precisely. It really wasn’t as hard or dire as i imagined it would be before I took part in it. The first day was a challenge not to go on my phone and check my Facebook and Twitter, as I’ve been so accustomed to. But luckily I was at a friends house, and it helped tremendously. We talked, laughed, and played video games for most of the day. I must tell ya… Silent Hill really helps the time fly by. Day 1 was over before I even noticed.

Day 2 was more of the same. It was a Saturday, and I spent most of it playing old video games on my PS2… namely Shadow of the Colossus and Grand Theft Auto San Andreas. Such time sucks. I rode my horse around aimlessly for a few hours,  before I actually beat the next to last colossus. In San Andreas, I entered all the cheat codes I could. Flew around exploring with my jetpack, crashed a stuntplane a few times, and tried in vain to win the motorcross. Good mindless times.

Day 3 was a Sunday. I actually spent it experimenting with some recipes in the kitchen. Nothing amazing, but edible. I noticed by this day that I rarely went on the computer for anything besides checking and responding to email. I had only 1 text message so the temptation wasn’t that high either there. I only spoke on the phone once to my friend. She’s not a phone person either so it was mostly short and sweet. Also, my daily written journals took a backseat. I just don’t enjoy actually writing with pen and paper anymore. I did manage to get a cramp in my thumb muscle from only 2 pages of writing. Goes to show how little I actually write.

Day 4 was a Monday, and that meant my guitar was finally arriving! I spent most of the day watching tv. Was too excited to do much of anything else. When it finally got here, I ripped off the packaging like a starving person. Ran to my computer and Googled beginner guitar chords and got straight to business. I think I played 2 hours on the 1st day of having it. My fingertips were painful, but it was so enjoyable, I managed to push through another 30 minutes after the initial pain had faded to a dull ache. After I couldn’t physically play anymore, I grabbed one of the books my friend lent me and read for a bit. I noticed I was beat at about 12am. Doing this cleanse, my bedtimes got earlier and my up times got earlier too. I think one morning I rose at 6am and job hunted for 3 hours until it was time to take out the dog. Productivity… YES!

Day 5, a Tuesday. More guitar. Mostly fumbling around with making sure the strings were pressed down all the way. More pain of course, and now a weird numbness to accompany it. So I settled on playing more video games and reading. Standard.

Day 6, Wednesday. I got bored of the video games I had so I took myself to Gamestop, an hour bus ride 1 way, to buy more. Used games of course. I’m all about bang for my buck. I came home with: Resident Evil 4, Hitman and God of War II. By far, God of War II was the best game I’ve ever played. So entertaining, glorious graphics, excellent controls. That blew a few hours after I got back home. Then early to bed as usual.

Day 7, Thursday. Almost done. But surprisingly fine. I wasn’t itching to jump back on Twitter or Facebook with a vengeance. Most of my day was very low key. Guitar, TV, Video Games. I ended the night watching Jersey Shore again.. Gotta love “The Situation” LOL.

Which brings us to present day. I woke about 7am. 2 hours to go before I could officially end the cleanse. And that is when the urge hit me. I guess because it was so imminent, I was raring to see what was happening online. 9am hit and I immediately went on MySpace to see if my message was responded to. Nothing. Then on Facebook. Ahhh my friends missed me, what an awesome welcome back! I came back to multiple wall posts, a picture post, and numerous inboxes. I replied to the urgent ones and sent a few of my own, just catching up. Then to Twitter… Very quiet… Then I realized I’m usually not on here until 2 hours later, so of course it’s quiet. 7 @ replies. Most cursing John Mayer for taking me away from them. Hilarious!! I missed my friends there immensely.

The daunting task now is getting back up to speed. I remember thinking if i was logged off for a day, or even a few hours I would be so behind! Now 7 days have passed, I feel a bit disoriented… and strangely enough, I don’t feel the overwhelming pull to be online all waking hours of the day. I enjoyed this time off, much more than one would expect. I do intend on keeping up with my book reading, guitar practicing, and even getting in some of that awesome PS2 action. Not to mention I’m still in dire need of a job ASAP. Unemployment runs out in about a month and a half. I’m trying like hell to avoid returning to retail, but it sadly looks like I will be forced to join those ranks again soon. Sad but true, my bills need to be paid, and I gotta do what I gotta do, no matter how morale draining it may be. Sorry to anyone who may love retail, it’s just not my ideal job situation.

So yea, I guess that’s all in a nutshell. The Digital Cleanse was a roaring success. Thanks John, for giving me the push to get back to what’s most important. Not saying everyone I talk to on social networking isn’t important… just saying that there is more to living life than being “connected” all the time. I think everyone should give it a try if you can!

And by the way, if you were wondering… my guitar’s name is Violet.


A Boring Rainy Tuesday Night… and my thoughts.

Reposted from Facebook: [ everything in quotes and brackets are what others said]

ahem ppl. always make sure to say what u mean and mean what u say. integrity is a highly valued trait. also, why are so many people scared of telling the truth?? it’s easy.. and it usually comes out eventually anyway.

besides, if u go thru life always telling the truth, then nobody can ever come at u later on some BS.

[ someone commented about losing faith in people]

it’s something that i have to learn to accept. just because my standard is this, doesn’t mean that i can hold people to the same standards. i can’t even begin to act surprised when they do disappoint me because i knew in the beginning that they would.

it’s a hard thing to accept. especially for someone like me who always tries to see the good in people no matter what. past instances i’ve usually learned my lesson too late and i end up with all the hurt.

and not trying to sound all holier than thou either. i mean, growing up i did my fair share of lying and deceit. but i learned quickly how to evaluate my decisions and actions based on how they will affect other people. before i make a decision i always imagine and ask myself how it would affect others.

it frustrates me that more people don’t take the time to do that, sadly.

i guess the selfishness of some people still astounds me no matter how many times i’ve seen it firsthand.

lol i just remembered the grey area of secrets and trust in relation to lies. i’ll leave that area alone. i just mean boldfaced LIES! lol

[this got me thinking of a quote i read… A person should not be too honest. Straight trees are cut first and honest people are screwed first]

well i suppose the “not too honest” part would be made up of secrets u keep for yourself and others then. 😛 and i mean small secrets! not like u have a wife in the next town or something like that

[HA! small is a relative term but we all would agree that aint small..
but overall, honesty requires foresight, an ability not many possess. the foresight not to get yourself into ish that will cause you to lie later…]
yes foresight. that was the term for what i was explaining earlier. thank u! lol

but now thinking about it.. me saying that i shouldn’t be surprised by disappointments, would mean that i would go into things with a negative outlook which isnt good either.

how would i balance that?? unless i just learn how to deal with disappointment gracefully instead of outright trying to avoid disappointment altogether……

ehh i dunno,lol. im just rambling on

ha!! thinking more on the topic of foresight now.. i’ve said so many times “why can’t men think about their gf/wives/family before they go out and cheat”.

then i thought about primal needs. like sex is just as much a primal need as are hunger and thirst. i mean, if u were starving on the street, u’d do whatever u could in order to get fed. so in some weird way i guess i can understand how men (ok and women, lol) cheat.

that primal drive sometimes clouds better judgment *nod nod*…

but i am in no way saying that it makes it right!!! SOME people are able to successfully control those instincts.

so does that make the one who can control himself “the stronger one??” i guess in a way it does. if a person can consciously control the basest of instincts then i guess it would make them stronger than someone who cannot.

btw, this is not what prompted my initial post.. lol no one has cheated on me in my current situation. i’m just saying..


…and we march on…

That’s what a very wise man said once, LOL. So where did I leave off last??? Ohhhhh right, yes.. my life taking a downward spiral. Yea, sorry I was having an emo day. I’m feeling much better now, thank you very much!

Still haven’t found work, but I’m keeping my eyes and ears open. Really trying to get a firm grasp on what I want to do with my life! Seriously, I’m one of those do-it-all types. I have so many interests that I fear if i settle on just one I will be bored to tears… This makes for quite a quandary. Ehhh.. guess I’ll mull over it later, with a beer of course. Cuz beer makes it better.

Hmm what else… oh right! The guy. Or should I type “THE GUY” cuz he’s that big of a deal,LOL. Eh, nothing happening. I think I’ve been mentally preparing myself to let it go because I can’t even fathom it. Really, it’s completely farfetched to imagine it… soooooo… marching along….

What else… yes! The Sam Bradley and Marcus Foster shows!

Sam Bradley played 2 shows here at Joe’s Pub, and the venue was just as  I remember. Insanely small, and they had the nerve to have dinner service! Standing room was only for about 25 people, no lie! We were all crammed next to the bar, while the wait staff shuffled by us with food. If i was smart I would have stolen some fries off some of those plates, right??

Anyway, yes Sam sang quite beautifully and was 10 times funnier than I imagined. Tall too! Dare I say more attractive in person as well?? Yep, he was thoroughly entertaining. Of course, my faves of the night were “Sea Blue”, “Too Far Gone” and a new song called “Wide Open”, which I did capture on film, but he threatened to break our kneecaps if we posted it on YouTube, so sorry folks, u won’t get it from me! (He didn’t really threaten us, but could you imagine? LOL) Yes, night 1 brought us a very chatty, comical and vocal Sam. Really.. he talked for at least 5 minutes in between each song. Thank goodness he’s not dry and boring.. (Bueller, Bueller??)

Anyway, night 2 brought us a far more subdued Sam. He was all about his music tonight, and I think it had something to do with his lack of rest, as I had asked him after the show and he did admit to being tired.

Now, onto Marcus. Let me mentally prepare myself to tell you about the greatness of this man. *clears throat*

He exceeded every expectation I had of him. It was to the point where I watched him in awe, mouth agape, camera hanging limply at my side. Just dumbfounded at how deliciously good he was. I can’t even put into words the awesomeness that man left on that stage this past weekend. Yes, it was that amazing!! GAH! Dare I say he was my favorite of the 3. (Sorry Bobby, I’ll always ❤ you! LOL) How can I explain… It’s like the music just explodes out of him. One minute he’s so shy you just want to hug him so tight and never let go, and the next minute he’s working the stage like a music legend. I’ve never seen anything like it!!

Yea, so if you ever have the chance to catch Marcus live, DO IT!! He is AMAZING!!!

Hmm, what else… the documentaries?? Still dead in the water.

I suppose that’s really all that’s been going on! Next things on the agenda are- 3 Bobby Long shows, Kings of Leon,  in September. It’s gonna be an AMAZING month!! Cannot wait!

And I’m in the process of updating my YouTube channel with all the video footage that I take. Go subscribe!!

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